28 December, 2007 - 00:23

I am sad for the world. Really sad. I sit across from my grandmother who is telling me about how she can check her Mastercard statement whilst the tv is telling me about the death of Benazir Bhutto. It's horrible. I am sick. I am tired. I am weakened. And all I want to do is change; the world, myself, people around me and the order of things. I don't know how. If there is ever a momentum for new year, new things, new thoughts for 2008 it feels like the time is right for making that change real. I can't sit back in my community anymore. I needed that for a year... to feel stable, to feel loved, to feel family. And now I'm off. To Vancouver. To the world. To Phillip. I'm off. I am done. With Ottawa, with some lovely people, with the snow, with bureaucracy, with my sex job. Done!