2002-01-28 - 20:49

thank sweet JESUS for the fallability of humans... oy that last entry. i've decided to get rid of my internet connection, i hate it. it teases me: adam, check your email, read noam chomsky, check out the latest news at BBC, look for porn, JUST SUUUURRRRRRRRFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!! there's enough of that when i walk in a mall, i certainly don't need it in my house.

my house. sometimes i find it hard to believe that i have this big old romper room to frolic about in. that means i'm an adult hey? who can say. lately, home has been chaotically inviting, my rooms are changing character, my kitchen is clean all the time and my tatami room is a den of debauchery, art, psychedelia and sweet homemade drum and flute music. i just still can't believe someone gave me such a big space to goof around in.

people back home seem closer. more important. i got lost in this big country, today i wanted to vomit the disassociation that japan can breed into a paper bag until the stringy bile became unstuck from my inside. yes, japan is that gross. it's that rusted, corrupt, confused, unreal.

i'll take the house to romp in for now, but if you took it away from me, i'd be happier.