2001-02-07 - 20:19:48

I'm coming increasingly close to getting to the point of what my little queer diverse identity is about.

Ahem, Today's chapter is about superfluity:

Being temporarily and critically superfluous makes moments so artificially imbued with culturally neutral moments that in fact it forms a movement of resistance against dominant socialised patterns.

It only works sometimes, though eh? Some people end up making superfluity a permanent fixture which is understandable and at the same time, ultimately regrettable.

Our little constructions in this world have inspired so much tyrannical power-peddling and self-regulation and impressed so little arbitrary abstractions and momentary ridiculousness that in order to live as a sain individual I need over-the-top moments of total self-involved unreasonability.

(Is that too much to ask?)

That's why at the same time, thinking curiously serious thoughts about the state of the world and Jewish-Palestinian relations, I need to listen to Lara Fabien singing how it's going "to take a lifetime" to get over her ex-lover.

It's also why other people do ridiculous things like walk down the street with proudly protruding testicles or why the guy on Ste. Catherine street wears his Year 2000-themed sunglasses while playing his accordian or even why a bunch sheepish student radical-disciples storm the military's table while job-recruiting on campus.

It's why Guy Debord talked about walking around a city where the streetlamps were controlled by passersby.. a self-created landscape by people whose theories are ridiculous enough to never be implemented but inspiring enough to cut through the mainstream current of traditionality and legal-rationality.

So this little identity I've constructed with the help of all the people I've met along the way is one that I finally respect to a degree that I don't think I could really depress the motivation behind it yet I'll give it enough autonomy to permit a myriad of personal revolutions.

I could be really presumptuous and point out where I think all those freakin' conflict theorists are going wrong with the imposition of imperious ideology and superficial "consciousness" but I think that would cause a riot amongst the sheepish student radical-disciples in my neck of the woods.

They've got their soy-milk-swords, I've got my superfluity and I'm sure we'll see each other somewhere in those convoluted shades of lavender.