2000-09-15 - 23:24

i'm not confused. i MUST keep telling myself that, i'm sure it'll make me feel better. these long long days are really wearing me down i think i've got to get a handle on them. plus having a cold really doesn't help phenomenally. in any case the war at frigo continues it's hard to believe that there is this significant amount of infighting going on between groups that really need to co-exist and even integrate themselves into the same milieu. of course, i must remind myself that this is student politics :)

_____ sent me an email today about our "relationship" whatever it may be and i think that he is thinking about it quite a bit. i'm still not sure what spurred the 2 emails and one telephone call extolling his thoughts on amicable, sexually involved relationships..perhaps he assumed i was starting to have a more intense degree of feelings for him. do it? jeez, can't tell when my phlegm is clogging up all the thinking mechanics of my brain but i would really have to say that mildly emphatically, "no", i'm fine with this that exists now. also the fact that it's something that we know need to think about is interesting...i must find someone who can have a relationship - any kind - with someone and have all communications conveyed by means of intricate body language :) aren't we all sick of this language thing anyway us humans tend to talk far too much

i am also concerned about _____ who is going to see someone she met on the net - it worries me i suppose in a way that doesn't worry her which is fine. we see people differently she says and doggonnit, she's quite correct. simply put, i don't see how some people might find some more extreme character traits supportable. il faut changer le monde par enseigner la communaute but i'm not sure that works. yikes. i'm tired.